It’s 2:20 AM and it’s the morning of 11th October 2019. I haven’t written on this blog for so long. It feels like I have forgotten how to write. Not that I was a good writer before but just the act of writing made me feel good. I think I might be updating this blog after July 15th 2018 which was the day my mother died. It was a Sunday.

Sundays hold a lot of significance for me. A lot has happened to me on random Sundays. My father was shot on a Sunday by some robbers back in 2012. It was September. I remember when my mamu broke the news down to me because Ammi was supposed to pick me up from biology coaching and she never came. My cousin called asking me where I was and after waiting for some time my mamu came. I saw Papa’s travel bag in his car and I couldn’t fathom what would have gone wrong. I just thought maybe Ammi and Papa went to mamu’s place. Maybe Papa isn’t going back. But then he broke the news to  me that Papa has been shot and my mind was a whirlpool of thoughts. All of those horrible thoughts kept coming back to me. It’s really traumatizing to be in the situation where either of your parents is in a life and death situation. I was barely 18 back then. My Ammi showed great strength in dealing with all of that. She took Papa to the hospital.  She was with him all the time. She used to describe the whole event in vivid details, how the robbers were trying to rob Ammi off and they were touching Ammi so Papa told them to not touch her, she is giving them her gold bangles away. But then they shot him. 3 maybe 4 maybe 6 bullets entered his abdomen. They shot an innocent man. Just like that, in a second, without thinking of consequences or anything, they shot Papa.

Human beings are so complex. As a kid you can’t think of anything bad happening to the world or to the humans because how can someone harm other? But you grow up and you learn that the world is brimming with evil and and a lot of factors which feed the evil, make it grow. That the goodness in it is just handful. And it throws you into a great deal of thought provoking instances.

Anyhoo I know I should complete this but I am too tired and I have an exam tomorrow for which I have to study so maybe some time. Although I will try to write more whether it is the most articulate piece or not. Because writing gives me pleasure.